self improvement..

today was a special day to me...y do i called it SPECIAL?

haha..i also dunno...juz tat in this day..i experience alot of feelings and inspired to think alot..
today...i was so dissapointed wif my students and myself..

i tot..as long as u be patient and kind..ppl surely will experience it and start to pay back..
but seems like things are not following this rules..

i tot i did a lot for my students..but end up they still refuse to do their homework..
i tot i inspired them..but actually maybe they are juz pretend to listen..
i tot i treat someone very well..but maybe i am juz pressuring him..

many many things..i tot i did it d best in my way..but actually this maybe mean different for others...maybe i shudnt be so selfish...

today i was very unhappy after teaching a class of students..that i care very much of them..even sacrifice my time to make exercise tat suits their level for them..but they let me down..by paying me back wif their BLANK and EMPTY homework..
i feel like crying in d office..struggling and thinking what shud i do next..

BUT someone tell me..U ALREADY did ur best..juz that not everyone will follow up what u wan them to do..although they understand wat u wan...JUZ LIKE WE ALL LAST TIME..He tell me..last time when miss EILEEN tell we all to do tis do tat..we also know she do it is good for us..but we also din do la..

Haha..when i heard tis..i suddenly feel tat..yalo..my students also arent that bad..at least they listen to what i said..and react sincerely to me..at tat moment..at least i heard their promises...They said they will finish their homework and let me drop my glasses..heh..i was so happy tat time..

human sometimes really very funny hor..we used to c bad things first be4 good ones...we used to evaluate ppl first be4 ourselves..and the Worst is..we like to compare...
if i dint teach a good class..i won expect so much on my bad class...and at last made both me and my class so tense..
this theory sama goes to relationship ba^^..maybe it's time for me to change my view that was so narrow..and STOP COMPARING..but juz appreciate what do i have^^sounds easy but difficult to accomplish..

heh..in juz one day..i experience happy, sad and back to motivated..maybe is juz like what ppl's say..girls really very changable..juz like the weather..sometimes rainy, sometime sunshine..

really hope i won scare my fren around me..haha..
anyway..thanks to my SPECIAL fren..that RESCUE me from bad mood..and thanks to the person that willing to listen my complains..it really helps me alot..off course also thanks to u that willing to waste ur time to look at my COMPLAINS here..haha

k lar..finish expressing..nite lo^^38 members..hope u all have sweet dreams la^^

YJ~